My sister keeps reminding me about my blog. You can thank her that there’s actually a new post here.
You see, I keep meaning to post–I really do–but I don’t just want to post anything. I want to post something worthwhile, something more than simply some thrown together ramblings–and that’s all I can seem to come up with lately. My thoughts have simply seemed to melt away in this summer heat; and when I actually sit down to write, there are no thoughts left spilling out my fingertips. The blank screen holds my attention for a few moments, then I type a bit, backspace, type, backspace, and finally ‘x’ down my page. Some other time, I’ll try again.
But it’s most always the same. No amazing or earth-shattering thoughts come, only small things. Why waste my time writing those down?
Perhaps, though, small things are good. Not simply for writing blog posts, but just in life generally.
…it’s those morning spent playing with baby sisters when you already have a long ‘to do’ list…it’s those thoughts scribbled quickly on a note card and stuck in the mail just as the postman pulls up–to show a friend you care even though your thoughts are jumbled and you’re not sure you’re even saying the right things…it’s doing dishes for a sibling when they’re busy and waving goodbye to Dad before he leaves for work…
And so, a waste of time then?
No, not a waste. Rather, blessed opportunities to show love to others, small chances to make a difference in the lives of those around us. And, who knows what God may do with those small moments where we have gone outside our comfort zone or given of our time for another person. It’s up to the Lord to decide what He wants to do with our little loaves and fish. A few times our Savior used those loaves to feed thousands of people. Other times He didn’t, but even when he didn’t feed thousands, the loaves were not wasted.
Even when I’ve got nothing big or glorious to offer, I want to be standing ready–ready to give Jesus everything I have–ready to be a vessel for Him to fill with His love and overflow to others.